This is an early post from me, to all of you, as I won’t have much time this weekend to write anything. I’ve been quite busy lately, with the kids, “friend” drama, Mr eHarmony and getting ready for Christmas.
For the first time in three years, the kids and I are having a “normal” Christmas. Our last real christmas was in 2008, which was our last Christmas with my husband. That year he saved up his truck money (the per diem he got for being a truck driver) and bought me an iPod touch. I remember opening it up, and screaming when he gave it to me. We still have it, and the kids play with it daily as I have an iPhone 4 now. 2009 was coping, going through the motions. It was a horrible Christmas, and all I remember is yelling and screaming at my mother because she refused to help me cook turkey dinner. It was horrible. It was my first time cooking turkey (my husband had done it every single year beforehand), and it ended in a screaming match with me running into my bedroom, slamming the door shut and sobbing hysterically into his t-shirt.
Last year, 2010, the kids and I went up north for Christmas and spent it with my family in Canada. We had a fairly good, but very busy christmas. Seeing as this is our second year in this house, the kids really wanted to spend Christmas here at home, so I told my family to come here and visit. So, my mom and sister saw us earlier this month, and my dad, step mom and brother are coming on Saturday and staying for a few days.
I’ve been baking up a storm, as I’ve felt like I’ve had to make up for it because I haven’t done it in three years. I’ve made three different batches of fudge, chocolate candy cane hearts, short bread, no bakes, and I’m going to make one more cookie bar tonight. The kids love it, and I like it too because I am trying to reinstate all of our old traditions. To be honest, it feels really good. It actually feels like Christmas this year.
The presents are all wrapped and under the tree because Mr eHarmony and I did that last weekend. It may have taken us 2.5 hours, but we did it (mostly me doing the wrapping, he did the big stuff), and had a great time talking and bonding with each other when we did. I think we were both as stiff as boards when we got up from the floor though, as sitting cross-legged for that long will leave you feeling like an old person.
I probably bought way too many presents this year, I really spoiled the kids, but I know it’s because I feel like I have to make up for the past two years. Not that the kids didn’t get good gifts either year in 2009 and 2010, but because this is our first real, normal Christmas. I want them to have a good childhood, even though their daddy is no longer with us.
Last night Mr eHarmony and I had our little Christmas together, as he flew to LA today for a week. I think I am the BEST girlfriend ever, because I bought him this, along with a few other things (he was spoiled, really). His reaction last night was priceless…imagine a HUGE gasp of air, eyes wide as saucers, and holding that look for at least a minute as he turned the box round and round, and finally, slowly, eked out “Mechagodzilla” in a slow breathy sentence. Oh yeah, it was that amazing. He bought me this, which I have been lusting after for ages, a Doctor Who figurine set (both SUPER AWESOME!!!), and The Deathly Hallows part 1 & 2 on Blu-Ray. The kids and I brought him to the airport this morning, and I missed him as soon as I drove off. 😦 He’ll be back on the 29th, and I am already anxiously counting down the days till I see him again and pick him up.
I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas, and lots of joyous wonderful time with your loved ones! To end this, here is Mr eHarmony’s favorite Christmas song (and one I have always enjoyed too):